SURPRISE!!! I'm still pregnant! I'm 39 weeks and I'm a mess. Every night I go to bed hoping my water breaks while I'm sleeping and every morning I wake up sweaty and rounder. I had this idea in my head that he had to be born last week. Amron started rotations in the hospital this week so I just knew he would could last week before he started so I could get a few nights rest in before Amron left me; single and lonely. But it turns out you really can't plan for these sort of things. I guess True can just wait until December to meet his father.
This week has been crazy. Amron has worked over 70 hours. He's supposed to be off at 7 but he hasn't been home before 11. I know I'm complaining. And lots of wives have it so much worst but this week has been like a slap in the face. I've been sooooo humbled. This last month Amron has been studying at home. So I could put the kids down for a nap and go run errands and he helped me put the kids to bed, and feed them and if I wasn't feeling good I could take a nap. And now he's gone and I realize how spoiled I was. I've had to rely on the Lord so much. And it's been so good for me.
This talk is amazing. I read it the first day Amron was gone. His first day was supposed to be a 24 hour shift. But he got off around 2am and surprised me! Isn't life so funny? Like we need hard things to help us learn and grow but they are so hard!
The kids have missed Amron so much. The first few days were the toughest. Sadie cried herself to sleep every night. I've tried really hard to do a good bedtime routine with them and it's helped so much!
Tomorrow I'm going to a doctors appointment and I'm going to have them strip my membranes. Gross, huh? The kids ask so many funny questions about how True got in and how he's coming out. We've watched this video of a home birth and it's really sweet. The kids love it. Sadie has watched it over 10 times. Don't worry, it's not graphic. I can even watch it. The first time I did get a little light headed but I think it was just because I was worried there was going to be more "birthing" but its good! It's really sweet and made me cry, but what doesn't ya know?
I'm not having a home birth, on purpose. I keep imagining my water breaks and so I get the kids loaded up in the car and the contractions get worst and worst and I start driving to the hospital and it's 120 degrees and I have to pull the car over on the freeway and have the baby in the back and Graham has to cut the cord and Max circumcises him and Sadie helps me deliver the placenta. Worst case scenario I guess.
I hope you don't see another blog post until this sweet little guy is here.