"The ultimate end of all activity in the Church is that a man and his wife and their children might be happy at home, protected by the principles and laws of the Gospel, sealed safely in the covenants of the everlasting Priesthood."
I've had a little bit of a blogging stump. If you noticed most of my pictures are or Graham, Max, and Sadie doing something really cute at our house. That's because this is what I do all the time. I don't really go anywhere. And if I do I don't want to post a picture of me running into fry's in my sweat pants or running out of Sam's club with a giant box of diapers.
I got a little discouraged when I started thinking, "I don't do anything!" And sometimes the effort involved in "doing something" is just not worth it. Just going to my mom's for Sunday dinner takes 3 trips to the truck to unload everything. And then we usually forget something and have to go back and we should have been home 20 minutes ago to feed the babies and Graham is crying and wants to get out of his carseat and he threw his binkey on the floor so we have to pull off the road so we can stop and get it for him. So what I'm trying to say it's just a big deal going anywhere. And over welling. And that is why I usually just stay home.
Amron and I went on a date tonight. We got a real babysitter (actually 2) you have to with 2 infants and a 2 years old) and we went to the movies. It was so great. Like we should do this every week or something. Anyway, in the car ride home we got talking, because we could (there was no one crying, or throwing things, or touching the babies heads when he shouldn't) and we tried to figure out a real plan that will work for us for the next few weeks until the babies will start sleeping through the night. We came to the conclusion that things are different for us right now. I really, really need to be home. I'll have a few hours a week to run errands and we will go on a date and I need to go the gym in the mornings but mostly I will be at home. And I always knew this of course. Not like it's going to be different from the last few weeks.
But instead of just enduring being at home I really want to grow and flourish.
I am going to take these next few months where I'm stuck at home and stop acting like I'm trapped. I want to focus on being a mom.
I want to build forts.
I want to snuggle.
I want to make good food.
I want to tell stories.
I want to rock my babies.
I want to sing songs.
I want to treat my family like they are the most important thing in the world to me. Because they are.
What I'm trying to say is expect to see more pictures of us at home. Doing "nothing".