I'm a little bit spoiled; in the fact that I usually get my way. I think Heavenly Father is really helping me to learn patience. We drove to the hospital and I just knew we would drive home with our baby
girl. But we didn't. And I was in shock. I wasn't angry just so, so surprised. When we got home I just felt like I was wondering around the house, not quite sure what to do with myself. I went out to swing and thought about my day at the hospital.
I remember walking towards the entrance, across the parking lot, holding Amron's hand, the black lady in the elevator who yawned and said it was nap time, and Sadie's blue pajamas, I love blue on her. Amron fed Sadie while I went to see Max down the hall. I walked happily past a few doctors, excited that my baby girl would never have to come back here. I got to Max's room while it seemed everyone else was leaving. There are 5 babies in the same room as Max. On Max's side of the room he is in the middle with a baby on each side of him and on the other side of the room is a set of girl twins and lots of machines hooked up to them. While I was holding Max the grandma of those twins came over to comment on how good looking he has. I happily told her that he was doing very well and he had a sister who was doing even better and we hoped to take her home today. I said it a little braggy. Then I asked how her babies here doing. She pointed to the one on the right and said," She's brain dead and hemorrhaging." Then pointed to the other baby and said, "she's brain dead too and really weak." Her son came over to ask her a question and they both left before I could say anything.
As they walked out of the room Amron walked in to tell me Sadie would not be coming home today. So my heart is a little broken not having Sadie with me but I know that she will be with me soon. Sadie and Max will both be leaving the hospital strong and healthy and I will be able to kiss their sweet faces and tickle their little toes. We are very, very blessed.
Wahoo, is this game a lady in my parent's ward made. It was Amanda and I verse Chase and Amron. We killed them, well the second time.
After two long games I stayed up even later with Ash to make these:
It was worth it huh?